7-8-08

I am so sucked into the online world of BB.com's Misc. section, it really is ridiculous. There's no way for me to realistically break away from the procrastination I've allowed, away from my writing with all the time I spend there. Even now, right now, while I'm sitting here writing this, I'm wondering what's going on there and whether or not something is going on I should respond to. That's not right; not helthy. The only thing that might be beneficial in a roundabout way, is that I'm actually doing some writing. My journal never took off - the Blog. So much for setting out to maintain a solid and ongoing piece of writing. The material is never-ending - it's my life, so there's no reason to I'm lacking on entries save for the black hole that absorbs my time and words with fail, forcing them away into obscurity moments after the 'SUBMIT' button is pushed.

Bah.

I'm failing myself.

At some point, I'm going to have to make a decision to either log off to that and any other website, in order to put my time into the writing I've always said I want to do but have not been doing. It's all well-and-good I have a book out. It's a personal achievement, not a professional one. The climate surrounding PA at the time of publication was so controversial and essentially negative in the world of publication and literature, having that book published may have actually been a step backward if I'd been of the ilk to wanting only to pursue a career as a novelist.

And that's funny, really, considering the acceptance my writing has achieved online at the various web forums I've spent time within which trying to establish myself.

The Misc., for example really isn't a place where acceptance is guaranteed. In fact, it's quite the opposite and when I take my age into consideration on top of everything else, it's fairly impressive (to me, at least) the level of acceptance I've achieved. I'm old, with marginal computer and chop skills - interacting with youngin's, essentially, most of which supposedly possess above average computer skills. The respect I've received thus far and the help in navigating my way around the web as a result, fascinates me.

The Misc. isn't a nice place. It really isn't. The fact that they've been nice to me is surprising.

So, I moved from 1 bar to the next - Quan's to Jenneration's. This is definitely more along the line of what 'm most comfortable with. I really like this place.

I have to wonder overall, what my life would be like if I didn't have kids and a family. A lot of this, most likely with a scattered bevy of un-named women.

- Just a random night out after work. There was a time when Bodybuilding.com's Misc. section consumed an incredible amount of my time. It's funny, brutal, invasive, potentially dangerous as the people there have a knack for unearthing any and all information about each other and using it for ill. It's a little like the chan's in that sense although from what I understand, the chan's are a whole other level. For a little while, at least, I know there was a bit of cross-flow between the Misc. and the chan's - at least number 4. Anyway, I still visit from time to time but in NO WAY do I spend as much time there as I did back then. It's addictive, as any web forum can be - and if you've ever frequented a web forum and found your place within one, you'll understand what that means.