So, ABC news came in to film me again today - I guess that means I'm in. I still have qualms regarding my practice, showcasing it anyway - that of my own insecurities. That's been a constant throughout my life and it's not about to change anytime soon. A varying degree of insecurity has plagued me throughout life related to just about anything and everything surrounding me - but I've done my own self-work and for the most part, am able to handle it. Whatever.
I'm sure it'll be fine. I just have to keep in mind the first and foremost priority, of course - that of patient care. Cuz when push comes to shove, this thing isn't about me, it's about the people who come here seeking care. I'm more of an engine to help make that possible - not the vehicle itself driving the main story.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Odd.
ABC camera came in to follow me on Wednesday. Alex was the name of the man behind the camera and he taped me throughout patient interactions, interventions, interviews, etc. There were only two patients willing to be filmed that day - but Alex said before he left that if I saw him again, I should be prepared to see a lot of him. If not, so be it. Either one is fine with me.
The basic implication of this is simple - if he or any of the producers decide to use me in the documentary, I'll be on TV showcasing my trade.
The bigger picture is - if they decide to use me, I become a default poster boy / spokesman for MGH Acute level Psychiatry.
It was odd being on camera, odd having it wherever I went, recording everything I said or did. Of course this being my relative first time, I was nowhere near the top of my game. Such is life. It will take a little getting used to. That's life. And if they do decide to keep coming, I'll no doubt learn to operate as though it doesn't exist, over time.
I have a good degree of confidance in my work. It's not perfect, same as I'm not, same as the people I care for aren't. Dealing with people in crisis will never reveal a "perfect" situation. But it will be important to show that when someone turns to MGH - or to psychiatry in general - that there are people available who are willing and able to listen, empathize, ground and keep safe, those who are unable to manage such pieces of their life on their own.
We'll see how it goes.
The basic implication of this is simple - if he or any of the producers decide to use me in the documentary, I'll be on TV showcasing my trade.
The bigger picture is - if they decide to use me, I become a default poster boy / spokesman for MGH Acute level Psychiatry.
It was odd being on camera, odd having it wherever I went, recording everything I said or did. Of course this being my relative first time, I was nowhere near the top of my game. Such is life. It will take a little getting used to. That's life. And if they do decide to keep coming, I'll no doubt learn to operate as though it doesn't exist, over time.
I have a good degree of confidance in my work. It's not perfect, same as I'm not, same as the people I care for aren't. Dealing with people in crisis will never reveal a "perfect" situation. But it will be important to show that when someone turns to MGH - or to psychiatry in general - that there are people available who are willing and able to listen, empathize, ground and keep safe, those who are unable to manage such pieces of their life on their own.
We'll see how it goes.
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